Another Friend Ties The Knot

In February of 2006, shortly after my little sister and I started this blog (it used to be a joint effort and it was called "Buttercup & Bean"), Starshine was one of the first people to leave us a comment. I don't know how she found us, but her comment led me to her blog, and there I discovered one of the warmest, kindest, most genuine people I have had the pleasure of encountering.

We went from fellow bloggers, to "blogger buddies" (Starshine's phrase), to actual, real live friends after meeting up in November of 2006 for coffee down in Houston, Texas, where, coincidentally, both of our mothers live. During that meeting, I also met the man who was to become her husband, eSuitor.

This past weekend, I had the pleasure of attending Starshine and eSuitor's wedding. It was a beautiful, deeply religious ceremony, marked by humorous quips by the presiding minister that made everyone, even the bride and groom, laugh through their tears of happiness. My mom was with me and she cried watching Starshine walk down the aisle. Starshine looked gorgeous in her mink-lined Winter wedding dress, and was radiating happiness, joy, and serenity. ESuitor was also beaming. They were both so obviously overjoyed to be marrying one another and so in love; it was beautiful. Seeing such blatant love always makes me get a little misty-eyed. The reception was fun, with two of the highlights being Starshine and her sister singing. They're both so talented!

After the wedding, I spent the rest of the weekend with the fam, first at my mom's house, and then at my dad's. In between QT, I contemplated this stage of my dating/single life. I'm realizing more and more that I am genuinely happy with who I am, and with the life that I'm creating for myself. I love living in New York, I love that I'm (slowly) getting healthy and fit again, I love that I'm exploring new classes and activities to do, and I love, and feel so lucky to have, such a great group of amazing friends, both in and out of New York.

Sometimes I feel a sense of urgency to find what Starshine and eSuitor, Dutch and Wood, my friend Pas and her husband, Prue and Astro, and several of my other friends have found - a deep, meaningful love, and the start of a life together. It's what I want in my future, and sometimes I feel like I'm running out of time to make it happen.

Othertimes, I'm just happy being where I am right now, happy to have the freedom to plan whatever I want on any given day, the entirety of my Queen-sized bed all to myself, the ability to make and clean messes in my room on my own schedule, time to spend with all of my girl friends, the liberty to spend money on things without anyone commenting, weeks without the need to even think about waxing, no fear of imminent diaper changing, sleepless nights due to going out too late, not because of a crying baby, harmless, entertaining flirting just for the heck of it, and the hope and promise of meeting someone incredible someday when I'm ready, after I've had more time to figure out and enjoy me.