Baby Boy and Christmas

The baby is moving and getting bigger and bigger; he's about a pound now. I thought I wrote a post but must have dreamt it. So for you all, we are having a Boy! A little precious baby boy! We had a doctor's appointment today and everything is fine. I have gained the appropriate weight...majority of it in my belly. As well with the frontal gain, my boobs are huge now, I wish they would stay a while but already I am too nervous of sagging so I sleep in a "bra-tang-top" for support. I am even more excited that in only 3 months and 20 days approximately, I will be holding my first son in my arms.

It is overwhelming to think of the day when his lease is up and he moves out of his current home and he is welcomed into this world; right into my arms. (I guess I will share him with my family too. Oh yeah and his dad can hold him.) I am going to have so much fun with our little one and I am so happy for him that he is already loved so much by all the family. I am jealous that he can start with a clear slate and paint whatever picture he wants. There are tons of things on my slate that I wish I stopped before I painted them, but then again, if it wasn't for those events, my whole mural could be different and I wouldn't want that.

Other than this new human being that I so far have been taking very good care of, things are well. I will see my family soon, which I am very excited for. I hate not having them around. I wish I could go grab a movie with my brothers, a soy chai with my sister, dinner with mom , and maybe a swim with my dad. Or perhaps, I could just decide to grab the dogs after work and head over to one of their homes to go for a run. Well, not at my sister's. The weather there is like the weather here. I woke up to another 6 inches of snow. I HATE the cold and it is freaking cold. And it sounds freezing in Manhattan. But a Chai latte sounds good. Or maybe we could knit together with Smores.

This next week is full with stuff to do. We have finished 50% of Christmas shopping...YAH! I always look forward to getting my family gifts, but I always enjoy checking them off my list too and hope they enjoy what I have gotten for them. I am so excited to spend time with my family. I just hope that I am able to see everyone and no one feels cheated. Especially me. I hate feeling cheated that I don't hang out with someone enough. Like last time. I felt as though I didn't see my mom enough. I also didn't see my brother and sister alot but they were only there for a short time, so it was reasonable that I only saw them so much. I anticipate my vacation so much and anticipate hanging out with each family member and then for whatever reason, I don't feel fulfilled in the end. I guess that is life.