Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Weighty

I woke up sad today, and though I've been trying to ignore it, the sadness has stayed with me. I've been thinking about the recent break-up, and of course him. Driving to my Dad's this morning - a small miracle that my mother allowed me to borrow her car despite her contention that Houston highways are basically the equivalent of death traps - I heard a song from Outkast that we used to dance to. Horrible. I think part of this taking care of me thing will have to include trying to disremember happy memories, including eliminating some of the music that invokes those memories. I'm off to have lunch with my Dad and Stepmom. Houston is chilly but sunny, and I'm glad I'm able to spend the day here, despite feeling weighed down by all of these emotions.

5 comments:

Gypsy said...

I heard a trick once, about those memories. Allow yourself to think about those memories for a set period of time. 30 seconds. A minute. Then stop. Force yourself to think of something else.

This is the worst time. I'm sorry you're feeling blue.

InterstellarLass said...

There are still certain songs that remind me of my ex. Sometimes I can listen to them, other times I just reach over and change the channel. It's easy. Just the push of a button.

SisterFriend said...

I tend to remember my exes in rosy retrospection. That is, the tendency to remember only the good times (even better than they were) and forget all the yuck that was a daily part of those relationships.

Ally Bean said...

Amazing the power of music in someone's life. Sorry you hurt. Glad that you're getting out and about.

Sparky Duck said...

Unfortunately there is going to be no way to expunge all these memories, especially when they are tied to music. I am still fully boycotting Jersey Girl by Bruce